Halloween, NaNoWriMo, and My Birthday

Salut Mama,

       Just thought I would start things off a little differently there. So it’s been a few days since I’ve written and I thought I’d better get back to it or I would let it go and go and go like I tend to do until one day I would realize that it’s been forever and I’ve dropped the ball. So what’s new you ask? I have a few things I could update you on.

Sleep Deprivation and Exceeding Expectations

Hey Mom,

       I’ve had a few things going on these past few days. I wanted to write you yesterday morning but I’ll get to that. I’ve been working the past few nights and once I get home I usually don’t stay up long enough to do much of anything. This morning I got home and started getting settled down when I got a phone call from the babysitter…Sariah was sick. So I got up and got dressed.

NaNoWriMo and Break-ins

Hey Mom,

       Just thought I would pop in for a few minutes and let you know what’s been going on in the past 24 hours. On YouTube I have been talking to some people who are also going to participate in NaNoWriMo this year and we’ve created a collaborative channel where each of us is going to make a video each week. There are seven of us right now so every day there should be a new vlog post up. We’re taking ideas from John and Hank Green’s Vlogbrothers project and applying them to our channel.

Possibilities

Hey Mom,

       It was an extremely busy night at work and I am ready for bed. But I know I haven’t written in a few days so I thought I’d better get back to it before I fell out of the habit. I’m preparing myself to participate in NaNoWriMo again this year. Last year I wrote The Stalker’s Club and I’m still actively revising it. I think it’s getting better each time I go through it. At least it should be. I write something and come back to read it later and think “that’s horrible, how could I have thought that was any good at all?” That can mean one or two things: either I’m progressing and becoming a better writer because I look back and see how bad I was or I’m not progressing much at all because every time I go back and read what I’ve written and rewritten I still see that it was horrible.

A Good Woman

Mom,


       My days have seemed a bit brighter here lately. I haven’t felt as much like a failure as I thought I would since I have given myself a break from school. I haven’t been announcing it to everyone though. I’ve been thinking a lot about Vicki, the girls, work, and writing. You don’t know what is going to come your way or how but time after time things keep coming our way.

Changing Paths

Hey Mom,


       It’s been a few days since my last post but there have been some pretty big developments for Vicki and myself. Alexis hasn’t been feeling well for the past two days either; she had to leave early from church yesterday morning (Sunday October 16th). I taught a lesson during the last segment of church on the signs of the second coming of Christ. I have had a chance to talk with Vicki about my schooling and what needs to be done with it.

Writing Is In Me

Hola Madre,


       I thought I would start this post off with a little of my second language since I don’t get to use it much at all. In less than 24 hours things have changed a bit between myself and Victoria. She has shown tremendous support for what I want to do, even though it is a big change from what I have been doing and the plan has deviated from what it has always been. We have been working on making these plans into a reality, but changing direction and heading into the unknown and going after an uncertain future is scary.

The Talks We Had

Hey there Mom,


       I know it’s been a couple days since I last wrote so it’s time for another installment. These past few days I have been spending time with Vicki and the girls, running errands. We went to Jon and Kim’s to see some of the puppies; I had my textbook with me but didn’t even crack it open. Perhaps I should have, but I wanted to spend the drive time talking with Vicki and watching the girls in the back sleeping and/or watching a movie on a portable DVD player.

As We Progress, Meanings Change

Hey Mom,


       I was just listening to/watching Ed TV, the movie with Matthew McConnaughey, and the scene where Ed goes to his father’s tiny rundown apartment got me thinking about Dad. I remember you and I used to talk about him every now-and-then on our trips up to Columbus. You never really dogged him in front of me, which I’m glad you didn’t. I know there were things that happened between you two and possibly others that didn’t sit well. You mentioned them a couple times when I was older and could better understand them.

What We Need and What We Want Are Two Different Things

Hello again Mom,


       I just finished working on my pathophys paper for the night and thought I would drop you a line before heading off to bed. At least I’ll try and go to sleep being that I have to get up early to get Alexis on the bus and I’ll have Sariah all day so there won’t be any afternoon nap. I remember you telling me at one point that you had or thought you had multiple sclerosis. I’ve chosen hat for the topic of my paper on neurological disorders. I figured “why not”, I’ll learn a bit more about it and maybe I’ll see some signs that you may or may not have had it. It really doesn’t matter anymore I suppose. Only 15% of those with the disorder had relatives who also had it. I’m not too worried about that.

Belief and Capability

Hey Mom,


       Before I get crackin’ on my advanced pathophysiology work for school I thought I would write a little something for you since it’s been a couple days and I don’t want you to think I’ve forgotten about you. I’ve done a lot of thinking in the past week with ups and downs and doubts, etc. I think things are turning around a bit for me now though. I just needed to step back and think about why I have been doing what I have been doing with myself.